I am at the moment in my life where I have to make
a sudden U-turn. It was so disappointing on my part because
I've already planned it. I want to cry. I want to scream.
I want to hurt myself. I want to feel numb.
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I am at verge where i have to choose between family or the man who made me so incredibly happy. I know i cannot have them both, I need to focus on one or else I am going to lose them.
I'm tired. Sleepless. Confused. Bewildered. I need someone to tell me what is the right thing to do.
I am not really strong as what i always portray. I often cry myself at night during hard times and see to it that nobody can hear me. I don't wanna let them see me vulnerable. But you know the problem with being strong? Nobody bothers to ask if you're alright because they think you can handle yourself. Nevertheless, I believe I can surpass this but somehow I'm wishing there would be this someone who is going to ask me if I'm truly okay. And if i say yes, he is like I know you're not so let me stay here until you're ready to spit it out. I'll be fine. I hope.
